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『HiMERU』 ([personal profile] meiq) wrote2022-11-19 10:46 pm

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[ would his brother understand? would his mother be happy? the questions, the worries from home, haunt him here as well, and he slips the grass into itself to keep himself from wavering as he so often did in the face of his brother; no amount of love could ever stop anxiety and fear, because love is where it was born from. kaname works through his basket as he musters up the words he'd practiced to himself, the face in the mirror so alike to the one beside him.

different, still. different but the same. proof of their family relation, something he clings to. ]


Truthfully, [ he starts, because maybe throwing out a bomb will ease the rest, ] I love someone very much. And I'd like to see him in the future, as I'd like to see you. But to do that, I need to know where I am in the future.

[ a pause, the wind cooling his warmed cheeks. it's strange to say it outloud. but it's true: something kaname would never act on, especially now, especially then, but the truth. ]

I know I'm behind you all. I've surmised as much from various conversations with the others. Which makes meeting him, as well as the others, far more difficult than anticipated. [ and for one person, from a land beyond, impossible.

kaname thinks of fantasies and then sets them aside. he swallows hard and finally, finally looks over at his brother, hands tight on the grass he weaves. ]
You've taken my name, but why did you take it?

[ there's nothing accusatory. just curious. in all rights it belongs to his brother now, kaname has no problems with that even here -- but why, and how much would his brother offer him? ]