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notscar: <user name=amberblaze> (a)

[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-16 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he won't fix a leona-shaped size hole in any wall but he will leave one in your heart. 💖

anyway. he's pleased that himeru answered and that he didn't have to resort to 'desperate' measures. or just measures, really. ]


Mm.

[ a soft noise as he walks inside, turning to look back at himeru. both hands on his hips, he puts a little more weight to one side as he leans and continues to stare with a lopsided smile. no menace, no anger. just curiosity ever-growing. ]

Glad you're doin' okay. Figured I'd stop by sometime.

[ all out of concern. that and something else. ]

So you and Yodaka live here. Just you two?

[ just in case. just in case.......... no witnesses :3 ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-18 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ hm. well, he can probably guess who that is. after all--- idols seem to stick together. one of the few exceptions happened to be himeru before his brother appeared, so. hm. it's an interesting choice of roommate given how deliberately normal she seems to be compared to the rest of them. ]

Have I? [ leona smiles faintly. ] Wonder why.

[ again, he can make some more assumptions as to why. perhaps it's because leona has been one the few non-idols that hasn't made himeru's life difficult? maybe???

well he's going to change that right away. ]


I heard you're a pretty good cook. That right?
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-19 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
In two ways, yeah.

[ he'd be happy to snag a meal here, but he'd probably want kaname to be here when he does that. right now--- there is something else that he wants. an opportunity to cash in on good will and favors before he gets any wrong ideas... so that he can have all the right ideas. ]

But I'm gonna make it easy on ya. Okay?

[ because he can. because he wants to show that he can show mercy, or at least, self-control. ]

I want you to answer any question I have, no matter the subject... but you can answer with just yeses or nos. Is that acceptable?

[ and he can let the reactions of a coolheaded and controlled idol determine how strong each response is. ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-22 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
You get as much from my questions as I get from your answers.

[ isn't that valuable? especially when leona is still a powerful mage and himeru is a pretty normal person, despite being an idol? or is knowledge not worth that much now? perhaps it isn't. ]

'sides. Do you think I'd wanna purposefully hurt you?

[ not that leona is offended, because. hey. people are scummy. leona isn't exactly the best example of someone who isn't, but he's had a pretty good track record here. just ask all the idols that've met him! like say... kaname. hehe. ]

But if you decline... well. 'm not stoppin' ya. Was just curious 'bout some things.

[ look how innocent he's being, with his tail flicking and his ears twitching... ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-23 01:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he knows about those risks as well. the longer he spends time with others, the likelier he becomes attached--- begrudgingly so or something the complete opposite. that he becomes familiar and doesn't want those presences to go away. that he might even seek them... let them near a troubled heart, though as of late? leona kingscholar hasn't felt as pressed or stressed on a personal level. yet, the closer others are...

that he's VERY fortunate to know strong mages. fighters. one exorcist. otherwise...

anyway. leona takes a seat. he crosses one leg over the other, slumps into a chair. ]


Okay. [ and he'll start: ] Do you use a stage name?
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-24 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ leona nods. he folds his arms across his chest. ]

Yeah, it is. It's not like you're back home, so I dunno why you'd keep using aliases other than force of habit or... somethin' else.

[ and it's that something else that has his curiosity piqued. ]

There a specific reason why you do it?
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-24 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ okay. it made sense before, it makes more sense when himeru confirms it, and thus it leads to a question that he expects to answer. an interest, a curiosity, that has become more pertinent the longer he's been here--- with that brother of himeru's, to boot. ]

Mhm. [ leona nods. ] I'm interested 'cause both you and Yodaka... you both do it.

[ and they're both important to him in different ways, so why wouldn't he be worried. ]

You said you thought this... Tatsumi guy was dangerous. Does he have to do with you wantin' you and your brother to use these names?
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-25 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think so.

[ rather, leona doesn't know. he's not aware. besides--- did himeru think his warnings were immediately ignored and cast aside? no. he asked those who were familiar with both idols and received responses that made him think. leona's no fool; perspective colors all opinions. if it's some personal grudge, leona's not going to insert himself in that.

though, this does change given his relationship with kaname...

... ]


What's he gonna do to your brother?

[ maybe they can find some kind of common ground here... caring for kaname... yeah. ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-25 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[ carrying a burden like this... some kind of knowledge that he shouldn't tell kaname... leona suddenly feels weight on his shoulders. of course this would concern him in some way. it had to. that was the conclusion he was eventually moving toward.

the beastman frowns, scratching his cheek lightly... thoughtfully. not feigning it. there is only curiosity and the desire to keep both him and his brother safe. protect this kind of brotherly love that leona couldn't have. wouldn't have. because unlike his own family situation, maybe these two could have something better. be equals. ]


For him and you? Yeah. I can.

[ but at the end of the day, it's leona's decision. he measures the worth of knowledge, decides if he needs to spend it later. for his own sake. not for others.

survival of the fittest. ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-26 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ in the past.

sacrificed.

rotting away in the hospital.


his mouth is dry as the desert, like the very sand he could turn anything into. sudden realization wells and pools in his throat and no amount of swallowing can get it down. are his eyes watering? maybe... maybe a little. he can practically feel the air wavering around his form, as he clenches his fists and stares pointedly at himeru.

there are truths and lies that make reality look silly.

it's a different kind of anger that fills his head. ooh, he could go out there right now and speak the phrase and just wrap his hands around this tatsumi's neck and not even squeeze. the magic would work and do what it had to do. what he might've done to ruggie was an accident, a... horrible, HORRIBLE accident. but what leona COULD do to this idol who would stand no chance?

his god would find his idol a pile of sand and nothing else.

when leona does find his own voice, it's soft. he reaches a conclusion, and it shakes him to his core. ]


No.
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-27 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ he pulls those tears back. with pain comes clarity. was he baiting himeru? no. in reality, he feels an immense amount of sympathy for both of them. however--- it was not himeru who was subjected to the supposed pressure and torture. it was kaname. right? that grin disgusts leona, makes his stomach turn and churn. perhaps he did make a fatal mistake; knowing nothing or very little would keep him in the dark. in the end, he deserves having forbidden knowledge revealed unto him.

does himeru think himself so clever as to believe... someone like leona, who has struggled with his own place in the world, knowing that what he does has no impact on the bearings of his standings, would be so easy to crumble? maybe! maybe.

maybe...

he rubs his face. smacks his own cheeks. both of his ears flit. yeah, he takes himeru's hand with him when he does it. ]


Yeah, a little. [ leona snorts. another cleansing breath. deep in, deep out. ] But you should know by now--- I can protect him in ways you can't.

[ that's the truth of the matter. right? idols are, no matter how beautiful their words or voices are... they're all human. no ounce of natural born magic in any of them. and that makes them weak. ]

And you, too. 'cause what we do here means nothin', but it also means everythin'.

[ is it being protective, or is it being obsessive? the lines are blurred. ]
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-27 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ himeru does care.

if he wanted for leona to go full berserk, he could've continued to say nothing. perhaps lead him down a dangerous path where he would burn out and then take everyone out with him. a disaster, when the world becomes sand and there's nothing left. in fact--- that's exactly what could happen. instead, he says what he does in order to temper that burning heat, that rage that has been cooling down and now is barely a simmer.

maybe it's not out of personal affection, if anything. there is a stark difference in how he carries himself compared to kaname. polar opposite. but why?

and why... is he lying?

himeru already proved that he would risk himself, though for family, anything is on the table. to have an opportunity to have his brother again, whole and safe, alive and breathing, is probably something he covets. he would want to protect him at all costs. and so, leona understands.

he won't speak about why he feels equally invested in kaname's health. he probably shouldn't. it'll be discovered in time, if it hasn't been already. but he would prefer leona over that tatsumi, right? right. ]


Well, I don't have to follow your rules, so maybe that alone will be helpful.

[ the beastman continues to smile in self-satisfaction. yeah. there are many things he can do. things that he could try. perhaps being a constant presence, something foreign and irresistible, selfish and self-serving... he could teach kaname a thing or two.

but also? he smiles for another reason.

another realization. a façade that has dropped. ]


He's a good kid. I don't wanna see either of you suffer.
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[personal profile] notscar 2023-02-28 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ 'strongly recommend' to leona is really just saying nothing. sorry. this is where he must be disrespectful when it comes to himeru's wishes. does he think he's that bright? that smart? what leona wants, leona gets. he's not going to be dissuaded by an empty threat from someone that he will protect no matter what he wants. what he thinks. even if they both suffer from it.

he's made his bed and he'll lie in it. both himeru and kaname will have to enjoy it too. no matter what.

...

they deserve it.

funny how himeru says that last bit, too. yeah. leona's chosen kaname, alright--- in more than one way.

anyway. he lets a moment of silence, of imagined calm, freeze the air... ]


... you slipped.

[ leona doesn't say it to tease or mock himeru. he simply states it. it's why he fully believes that this is the true person he's been speaking to. stands to reason that it makes both brothers very obsessive in ways that... make some odd sense.

but he'll still smile inwardly. ]

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