[ having the ability to sleep anywhere like a baby is a blessing, but a curse at the same time; it allows him to make the table a welcome bed, yet it means he doesn't stir as easy as he should when someone's walking into the same room as him. especially not in a place that's become on edge as the non-special's camp had been, as tense as the catacombs that resented him so.
it's only because kaname knows his brother is around that he's able to, maybe. even if he hadn't realized his "short doze" had turned into hours worth of rest.
while the footsteps hadn't disturbed him any, the blanket being pulled more over him does just a bit; in that half-awake state, kaname makes a soft noise and turns his head, staring at HiMERU blearily before tucking into his arms again.
...
mumbled, sleepy: ]
... Good morning.
[ if he gets scolded for sleeping somewhere not a bed then that's fine, he won't be surprised. ]
[His hand falls like a feather on Kaname's head. Perhaps, normally, he would make a comment about sleeping outside of a bed. It contributes to poor posture, it's bad for your muscles, you can't effectively rest as well, et cetera. But there are a lot of things HiMERU has stopped saying, the closer they come to the end of the month, in favor of saving his breath for things more important.
Even his nagging can take the backseat here, when they have so much more to turn their eyes on now.]
What are you doing, all the way out here?
[He can hazard a decent guess thanks to the clues strewn about, but he'll allow Kaname the honor of explaining himself.]
[ not too clear, at first, but he shifts his head just enough to rest his cheek on his folded arms with a yawn before he tries again. ]
Cooking.
[ better. he moves one hand half-heartedly to the plate, patting at it before finding a petal he likes and holding it up with a quiet hum of request. ]
[HiMERU blinks at the lifted hand and the proffered piece, then slowly plucks it up to hold, too. He turns it around in his two fingers, raising it up to the light as though inspecting in great detail, and there's what seems like too long a silence as he considers how breakfast does not start with chocolate, but... one petal can't be so harmful, and Kaname is waiting for his next move. Without further fanfare, he pops it into his mouth, allowing it to melt on his tongue.
Simple, sweet, and gone too soon.]
When did you learn how to do this?
[He did say he should spend his time on more productive things, but even this is unexpected. A pleasant surprise, no matter any hints leading up to it.]
[ he looked like he maybe enjoyed it, kaname thinks. that's good enough, after the tense inspection from before. he sits up, shaking his head like a dog trying to wake itself, and ends up resting on his hand. a little better. he's making it up. ]
... Narukami taught me. A little after we met. I wanted... to learn how to make some, since you like sweets. I've been-- [ another yawn breaks his sentence, despite his best effort, and he looks vaguely annoyed before finishing it. ] I've been practicing while you were away.
[ he had plenty of time, after all. to sneak in all sorts of activities. ]
Is it good? The, um... The truffles have a filling. Shiina gave me pointers as well.
[Wow. Narukami and Shiina. There's something a little ticklish about some of the people "closer" to him having helped in this little project of his brother's. Surely it didn't... mean anything. It could've been anyone, most likely, so long as they knew what they were talking about and were agreeable enough for Kaname to learn under.
Still. In the end, he had chosen them. He wonders if they knew, then. If they were all humble accomplices in on this sweet little secret. On one hand, it's bothersome to know there are movements made behind his back. On the other...
When Kaname yawns, HiMERU gives the other's cheek a fond brush with the back of his fingers.]
[ -- it startles him a little and he flushes, turning his face away to rub the sleep out of it. embarrassing. so nice, so embarrassingly nice. ]
They're all for you, so of course you can.
[ his brother can have as many as he'd like. he could have every one of them, or just a few. it just puts kaname at visible ease to have them enjoyed at all.
... he wants to thank his brother, to apologize, to hope they'll stay together -- but not a single word comes out, not yet. kaname is keenly watching HiMERU. ]
[He won't indulge in too many, given the early hour and the lack of proper breakfast before this, but he is at least interested to try the other type of chocolates. If Kaname made these all for him, then it should be fine to take his time with them, and savor them so that they last. He just might not ever finish them...
He lifts a truffle to his lips, delicately biting it in half first to taste and examine the cream filling. Fruit and chocolate, a classic combination... It's not the smoothest, but there's nothing to complain about with the taste. He pushes the other half into his mouth too, humming with approval, waiting until it no longer coats his tongue to speak.]
Thank you. I don't know if I'll be able to finish them all myself, however. I know you made them, so perhaps you're tired of sampling everything yourself, but you're welcome to it if you're so inclined to help.
[A quiet laugh as he ruffles his brother's hair gently.]
shyly, he reaches up to take his brother's hand and bring it down between them to hold. kaname works the words up and down in his mind, thinking of the script he'd written and read over time and time again sitting in his phone, but the words are fuzzy. breathe in, breathe out. it won't be too much. will it? it will be, won't it. that's why he's trapped HiMERU like this, so he can't leave or pull away. don't, please. ]
I wanted to thank you. Taka-nii, you've done more for me than you think -- more than I could ever say. And words aren't enough. [ they weren't over the phone, and they could never be in person. ] So I wanted to make you something to show you that, and... how sorry I am, too, for worrying you.
[ especially. now. after everything. there's so much to apologize for. but half of it he can't say, not now and not ever, so that'll do. ]
I've always wanted to be a family with you, and it really feels like we can be here -- even if we'd never grown up together, or ever knew each other. Even if you don't remember me at all. [ it's a sore spot. but. it's fine. his tone is grateful, and despite his words it doesn't hold a bit of the resentment that's hidden in his heart. ] Thank you for treating me like family anyway.
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it's only because kaname knows his brother is around that he's able to, maybe. even if he hadn't realized his "short doze" had turned into hours worth of rest.
while the footsteps hadn't disturbed him any, the blanket being pulled more over him does just a bit; in that half-awake state, kaname makes a soft noise and turns his head, staring at HiMERU blearily before tucking into his arms again.
...
mumbled, sleepy: ]
... Good morning.
[ if he gets scolded for sleeping somewhere not a bed then that's fine, he won't be surprised. ]
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[His hand falls like a feather on Kaname's head. Perhaps, normally, he would make a comment about sleeping outside of a bed. It contributes to poor posture, it's bad for your muscles, you can't effectively rest as well, et cetera. But there are a lot of things HiMERU has stopped saying, the closer they come to the end of the month, in favor of saving his breath for things more important.
Even his nagging can take the backseat here, when they have so much more to turn their eyes on now.]
What are you doing, all the way out here?
[He can hazard a decent guess thanks to the clues strewn about, but he'll allow Kaname the honor of explaining himself.]
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[ not too clear, at first, but he shifts his head just enough to rest his cheek on his folded arms with a yawn before he tries again. ]
Cooking.
[ better. he moves one hand half-heartedly to the plate, patting at it before finding a petal he likes and holding it up with a quiet hum of request. ]
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Simple, sweet, and gone too soon.]
When did you learn how to do this?
[He did say he should spend his time on more productive things, but even this is unexpected. A pleasant surprise, no matter any hints leading up to it.]
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... Narukami taught me. A little after we met. I wanted... to learn how to make some, since you like sweets. I've been-- [ another yawn breaks his sentence, despite his best effort, and he looks vaguely annoyed before finishing it. ] I've been practicing while you were away.
[ he had plenty of time, after all. to sneak in all sorts of activities. ]
Is it good? The, um... The truffles have a filling. Shiina gave me pointers as well.
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Still. In the end, he had chosen them. He wonders if they knew, then. If they were all humble accomplices in on this sweet little secret. On one hand, it's bothersome to know there are movements made behind his back. On the other...
When Kaname yawns, HiMERU gives the other's cheek a fond brush with the back of his fingers.]
Very good. Would you mind if I had another?
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They're all for you, so of course you can.
[ his brother can have as many as he'd like. he could have every one of them, or just a few. it just puts kaname at visible ease to have them enjoyed at all.
... he wants to thank his brother, to apologize, to hope they'll stay together -- but not a single word comes out, not yet. kaname is keenly watching HiMERU. ]
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He lifts a truffle to his lips, delicately biting it in half first to taste and examine the cream filling. Fruit and chocolate, a classic combination... It's not the smoothest, but there's nothing to complain about with the taste. He pushes the other half into his mouth too, humming with approval, waiting until it no longer coats his tongue to speak.]
Thank you. I don't know if I'll be able to finish them all myself, however. I know you made them, so perhaps you're tired of sampling everything yourself, but you're welcome to it if you're so inclined to help.
[A quiet laugh as he ruffles his brother's hair gently.]
What was your inspiration?
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[ what made him want to do it?
...
shyly, he reaches up to take his brother's hand and bring it down between them to hold. kaname works the words up and down in his mind, thinking of the script he'd written and read over time and time again sitting in his phone, but the words are fuzzy. breathe in, breathe out. it won't be too much. will it? it will be, won't it. that's why he's trapped HiMERU like this, so he can't leave or pull away. don't, please. ]
I wanted to thank you. Taka-nii, you've done more for me than you think -- more than I could ever say. And words aren't enough. [ they weren't over the phone, and they could never be in person. ] So I wanted to make you something to show you that, and... how sorry I am, too, for worrying you.
[ especially. now. after everything. there's so much to apologize for. but half of it he can't say, not now and not ever, so that'll do. ]
I've always wanted to be a family with you, and it really feels like we can be here -- even if we'd never grown up together, or ever knew each other. Even if you don't remember me at all. [ it's a sore spot. but. it's fine. his tone is grateful, and despite his words it doesn't hold a bit of the resentment that's hidden in his heart. ] Thank you for treating me like family anyway.