[ it's been a lot easier just to ignore the things he'd left back home, the more people emphasized that they didn't matter, that they couldn't reach him here, and while it'd been slow at first kaname had begun to accept his freedom, his independence, and learned from others what it meant to have a life outside of the wish his mother had left for him. he learned small happinesses and fun, the frustrations a boy his age should have, and everything inbetween.
really, it's probably all HiMERU could have wanted for his little brother and more. it must be nice, being able to see him smile so brightly every day and chat about his going ons, from venting about more minor things to being giddy about others... the end of march had dampened it as much as it had everyone, of course, but time moves on, time eases all pain.
...
that pain is why kaname waited a little longer than he should've, because regardless of the playful rumors he and narukami share together shiina and amagi were important to his brother and he knows that. kaname knows loss. it what brought him to seek out hiiro, and from that conversation this one would be born.
preamble aside, kaname isn't sure where he wants to talk about it -- so he asks his brother to take a walk with him instead. while he'd love to walk under the slowly greening trees of the forest he's heard, he's seen things, past the line and knows better than to venture too close; they can go the other way, sit in the plains between the town and the church. it'll be fun.
the soundproofing of the grass'll be nice too.
but it's still hard to start, so at first it is just a pleasant time out -- maybe HiMERU has a book to read while kaname weaves the grass into the start of a basket the way akane showed him, and he thinks of how he hasn't seen her as of late. something nice and relaxing, with little chitchat. ]
... Taka-nii, [ he starts as he finally works up the courage, ] we need to talk.
[ as if they weren't already, just a lull between one topic and the next. kaname keeps his face turned down, threading the lengthy grass turn after turn. it's the only thing keeping him from trembling. ]
sometime in april
really, it's probably all HiMERU could have wanted for his little brother and more. it must be nice, being able to see him smile so brightly every day and chat about his going ons, from venting about more minor things to being giddy about others... the end of march had dampened it as much as it had everyone, of course, but time moves on, time eases all pain.
...
that pain is why kaname waited a little longer than he should've, because regardless of the playful rumors he and narukami share together shiina and amagi were important to his brother and he knows that. kaname knows loss. it what brought him to seek out hiiro, and from that conversation this one would be born.
preamble aside, kaname isn't sure where he wants to talk about it -- so he asks his brother to take a walk with him instead. while he'd love to walk under the slowly greening trees of the forest he's heard, he's seen things, past the line and knows better than to venture too close; they can go the other way, sit in the plains between the town and the church. it'll be fun.
the soundproofing of the grass'll be nice too.
but it's still hard to start, so at first it is just a pleasant time out -- maybe HiMERU has a book to read while kaname weaves the grass into the start of a basket the way akane showed him, and he thinks of how he hasn't seen her as of late. something nice and relaxing, with little chitchat. ]
... Taka-nii, [ he starts as he finally works up the courage, ] we need to talk.
[ as if they weren't already, just a lull between one topic and the next. kaname keeps his face turned down, threading the lengthy grass turn after turn. it's the only thing keeping him from trembling. ]
About us. [ -- no. ] About me.