not just because lately, his brother has been around more -- as if god heard his wish and granted it, despite the worry lines that crease HiMERU's face when he thinks kaname isn't looking -- but... in general, after that day with narukami. he can't scrap off the memories that line the kitchen she taught him in, the conversations they had and the end that befell her, nor the aftermath of it all; it sits like rust on iron, rot in wood, weakening everything around him.
it feels like he doesn't deserve to do this. but kaname wants to get his mind off the world outside anyway, and so once he's certain his brother is sleeping he puts to practice the things he learned from narukami, the improvements from shiina...
... and HiMERU won't find kaname in his bed like normal come morning, but slumped over the table in the kitchen with a blanket over his shoulders by what staff is left these days, the room itself cleaned and a small plate of chocolates by his sleeping form.
they still aren't professional. some of the pawprint, flower petal, and star solids are broken in his tired efforts to unstick them from their molds. the rounded truffles with drizzled darker cocoa look nice enough, if a little sloppy in their own way. whatever the rest of the day holds doesn't matter -- he'd still wanted to do this, and it felt like he had to after he'd so thoughtlessly pushed narukami so far. ]
1/28, action......
not just because lately, his brother has been around more -- as if god heard his wish and granted it, despite the worry lines that crease HiMERU's face when he thinks kaname isn't looking -- but... in general, after that day with narukami. he can't scrap off the memories that line the kitchen she taught him in, the conversations they had and the end that befell her, nor the aftermath of it all; it sits like rust on iron, rot in wood, weakening everything around him.
it feels like he doesn't deserve to do this. but kaname wants to get his mind off the world outside anyway, and so once he's certain his brother is sleeping he puts to practice the things he learned from narukami, the improvements from shiina...
... and HiMERU won't find kaname in his bed like normal come morning, but slumped over the table in the kitchen with a blanket over his shoulders by what staff is left these days, the room itself cleaned and a small plate of chocolates by his sleeping form.
they still aren't professional. some of the pawprint, flower petal, and star solids are broken in his tired efforts to unstick them from their molds. the rounded truffles with drizzled darker cocoa look nice enough, if a little sloppy in their own way. whatever the rest of the day holds doesn't matter -- he'd still wanted to do this, and it felt like he had to after he'd so thoughtlessly pushed narukami so far. ]