meiq: 06. 決めた (01-02-04)
『HiMERU』 ([personal profile] meiq) wrote2022-10-23 10:24 pm

[closed] bite me.

[After the success of their Love☆Star special, it was safe to say that HiMERU had his share of working closely with Kazehaya Tatsumi for a good while; though never again would be the ideal, it's hardly realistic, he knows. Even with how ALKALOID has been skyrocketing in popularity — thankfully busy enough to keep a certain eyesore out of the way — they are still featured in tandem with Crazy:B rather often, as "units that debuted at the same time and get along well." Thus, working alongside one another is regrettably unavoidable.

Even with that being said, he's not prepared to see the saintly bastard himself at the scene of his next job. It didn't feel like so long ago that HiMERU had rejected the offer for that disgusting sequel concept (not that their unit is exactly drowning in work offers, but it's important to draw the line when needed, and that was definitely needed, lest the man snap and attempt murder in front of a film crew — again!).

He knew that the production staff had been taking more time to cast his opposite, with great consideration to potential on-screen chemistry, but... isn't this just too much? Some deliberately sick joke? Another hidden camera prank? A part of him is almost wishing for one of the Aoi twins to jump out to speed along the punchline, but no such thing happens. Of course. It's never that easy. Not whenever he's involved.

The best he can do for now is grin and bear it. HiMERU is... a professional, after all. They've only just begun. No need to overreact. Just stay calm, and take it one step at a time.

His smile may be plastered on, but that's just business as usual.]


Tatsumi. What a coincidence to find you here today. So the rumors are true, then? We're to be co-stars... again?
withbendedknee: (Worked for Moses.)

[personal profile] withbendedknee 2022-10-27 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ With every word of praise HiMERU gives to the script, he straightens himself like an antenna, hoping for a transmission of even a little of the other's professionalism into himself. ]

You are perceptive as always.

Please, do not misunderstand: I am thankful for this reminder that I am not perfect, for this opportunity to improve and explore new ways to make the fans happy. I have no intention of failing you or the rest of the staff. Even in excluding the predispositions I've been raised with due to my faith, I still don't know where to even begin with being...

[ a shaky sigh stands in for "seductive." Self-loathing and in love HiMERU come naturally to him, but seductive and possessive are uncomfortable for various reasons. ]
withbendedknee: (Worked for Moses.)

[personal profile] withbendedknee 2022-10-30 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he takes the chastising gratefully. He can't argue with anything said— even he knows he needs to hear it. Teeth tug at his bottom lip in hesitation. Even the words feel foreign in his mouth. ]

As a solo artist, being erm, "seductive" wasn't part of my image. And even now, with Alkaloid, that feels disparate with us as "underdogs."

Even if the director has faith in my ability, I do not know how to find that within myself.
withbendedknee: (Playtime with the Cardinal is over.)

[personal profile] withbendedknee 2022-11-03 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Like HiMERU-san. Right.

[ The thought makes him even more hesitant. Tension grips his throat, phantom sensations of what HiMERU did. It isn't that he thinks HiMERU is a bad example, if anything, he's too good of an example— too committed to the role he needs to play.

Tatsumi couldn't hope to emulate that with such committment, not when the only thing he wants is to be someone good enough for HiMERU to consider a friend. He isn't greedy enough to hope for anything more than that. And yet, for this role, he's supposed to be greedy. He's supposed to want HiMERU('s character) to only have eyes for him, and never leave him, even if he has to imprison them. That is the "gap" that the audience wishes to see, and the staff expects him to deliver. ]


Then, is it alright if I...

[ Without touching HiMERU, or even looking in his direction, heat rises to his cheeks. It's hard to not feel self-conscious, to act with the same decisiveness HiMERU had shown him. His character wouldn't feel flustered. He wouldn't ask for permission. He would just take what he wanted.

Since there isn't a wall, he fences HiMERU in against the couch, his hands on either side of his co-star's shoulders. ]
withbendedknee: (They think of us as a passe;archaic)

[personal profile] withbendedknee 2022-11-08 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
I truly appreciate the feedback, HiMERU-san.

[ He has no reason to be facetious, especially since he's blessed enough to be receiving advice from one of the people he admires and respects the most. The insight is certainly food for thought, and chews on it slowly, with great care. Tension leaves his arms, and he unconsciously dips forward. Possibly too close for comfort, though— as always— he's oblivious to this. A hum, a deep rumble in his throat, accompanies his meditation. ]

Indeed, in knowing eternity, the days or weeks needed to ensnare their "prey," for lack of a better word— sorry— may seem like a trifling matter. To an abomination that is immortal, a human lifespan passes in the blink of an eye. But I also think that in understanding that their lives are so fleeting, there is... at least a little bit of urgency to possess them, to preserve them as they are in the moment that captivated them so.

[ Of all times, the old ache in his knee returns again. Even if he feels the twinge, his own professionalism keeps it from showing on his face, lest he cause HiMERU-san to worry unduly. Maintaining eye contact and a placid smile, he rests his knee between HiMERU's legs. A little more tension leaves his body, relief apparent in a soft huff. ]

After all, people can change quite a bit in just a day, and even more in a year. Ah— but of course, you're just as dazzling and radiant as you've ever been, HiMERU-san.

[ In what is probably intended as a reassuring gesture, he smiles and slides a hand over HiMERU's, giving it a gentle squeeze. ]
Edited 2022-11-08 04:48 (UTC)
withbendedknee: (Now come on; kids)

[personal profile] withbendedknee 2022-11-12 01:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ A priest. A saint. Someone capable of achieving anything. There are so many labels that Tatsumi wants to eschew, and "a god among men" is certainly one of them. The gap between himself and other people remains a raw memory: he would rather be cursed and trampled under the heels of his former followers, than be placed back on the pedestal they built for him. At that height, the air was impossible to breathe.

He doesn't mind arrogant and pitiful— he won't deny being either of those things. The words have the weight of legitimacy behind them, coming from HiMERU. His challenging expression makes him want to fall to his knees and drink down more of the venom spilling from his lips.

But this isn't about him. HiMERU is in character. He's diligently read through the script, and went over the scenes he found "challenging" three more times. While there aren't any lines exactly like what HiMERU had said, the spirit of his character is clearly there. Coupled with the helpful suggestion to take things slower, he takes the pressure off HiMERU's hands. It's a false offering of benevolence, a chance to push back, however futile it would be. ]


A "God among men?" You of all people should know a vampire is the furthest thing from God, even more so than humans.

[ A smile that doesn't reach his eyes plays across his lips as he whispers in a low voice. ]

Wouldn't it be better to consider me a cohort of the Devil Himself?