like, kneejerkly, he'll get back to being sleepyville in a minute, but the affection ticks his heartrate up so fast it's embarrassing. the thoughtless hugging, the closeness, the way his brother nuzzles into his hair... it's a lot, and he wonders if HiMERU would do this with any bedmate now. he got used to it with kaname, didn't he? if it was someone else, would he hold them close? would he show such a gentle affection?
...
probably not, he reasons, and nuzzles closer himself. he knows his brother's been sick lately, that he's on the mend as tired as he is still, but-- oh, it'd be worth it if he caught ill too. then HiMERU could take care of him. how best to get sick...? kissing? brothers kiss. hiiro said so. but it's hard to like this, so no way. HiMERU would surely wake if he moved more. this should be good enough.
his heart eventually eases though and he buries his face into his brother a little more, eager to be as close as possible the way they'd gotten used to in sharing a single bed not a month before; as terrifying as it had been at times, those were some of his happier memories, and so now he's finding himself eager to replay them.
yes, they can sleep... they'll be some of the best dreams kaname's had in a good week too -- mostly because he has none at all. ]
me!!!!!!!
nevermind he's wide awake again.
like, kneejerkly, he'll get back to being sleepyville in a minute, but the affection ticks his heartrate up so fast it's embarrassing. the thoughtless hugging, the closeness, the way his brother nuzzles into his hair... it's a lot, and he wonders if HiMERU would do this with any bedmate now. he got used to it with kaname, didn't he? if it was someone else, would he hold them close? would he show such a gentle affection?
...
probably not, he reasons, and nuzzles closer himself. he knows his brother's been sick lately, that he's on the mend as tired as he is still, but-- oh, it'd be worth it if he caught ill too. then HiMERU could take care of him. how best to get sick...? kissing? brothers kiss. hiiro said so. but it's hard to like this, so no way. HiMERU would surely wake if he moved more. this should be good enough.
his heart eventually eases though and he buries his face into his brother a little more, eager to be as close as possible the way they'd gotten used to in sharing a single bed not a month before; as terrifying as it had been at times, those were some of his happier memories, and so now he's finding himself eager to replay them.
yes, they can sleep... they'll be some of the best dreams kaname's had in a good week too -- mostly because he has none at all. ]